9,772 Tears

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“I want you to have a stress test and an echocardiogram,” said my heart doctor. I was having some difficulties with my breathing. I have had these tests done before at the same medical facility, before having heart stents put in. I should add that my medical insurance had paid for these tests at this facility.

So when I got a bill for $9,772.50, I was shocked! My health insurance company explained to me that, though the doctors were “In-Network” and paid, the hospital was “Out of Network.” I had the test done in August of 2025. What I didn’t know, and was never told, was that the company I retired from could not reach an agreement with the oversized medical conglomerate, so they decided to declare them “Out of Network” in June of 2025.

I argued, I appealed twice, but still the insurance company would not pay the bill. I spoke to the hospital, I argued, I appealed, and I begged them to reduce the bill as if I was paying cash and had no insurance, and technically, I didn’t have insurance to help me pay it. They would not work with me. The only thing they finally did was agree to put me on a five-year payment plan instead of a three-year plan.

I turned to God. I appealed to Him for help. I cried, at least 9,772 tears. I didn’t know what we were going to do. I could feel stress every time I looked at our finances. Over the ongoing five months, I prayed. April was praying too, as was her prayer partner.

I was talking to a medical advocate that my retirement company provides, and I mentioned the $9,772 bill. The woman I was talking to took notes and referred me to another lady who was going to look into the matter. She responded a few days later that she, too, spoke to my insurance company and to the medical group, and the only thing she could suggest was to fill out and submit a financial aid form. I almost didn’t because, as I said to April, “They will probably think we make too much money.” But I did fill it out and sent it in.

Yesterday morning (February 13, 2026), I was sitting at my desk working on some other matters when I received the following email:

Hi Mark A.

We’ve received the final payment for your payment plan, and the balance is now paid off. Thank you — this payment plan is now closed.

Your balance is now fully paid

I couldn’t believe it! I was shocked, and I started crying! “APRIL, COME HERE! YOU’RE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE IT!” We hugged and held each other, as we started thanking and praising God.

This is why I write so many times about how great God is. How much He cares and loves us. He knows what we are going through and is just waiting for us to invite Him into our lives and into our situations. I’m not special. I’m not holy or a saint. I do try to walk justly with my God, though. I do read His word, the Bible, not religiously, but I do read it. Having a relationship with God through His Son, Jesus, is not about being good enough or keeping a stupid man-made list of rules. I do commit sins, but I also confess those sins to God and ask Him to help me go and sin no more.

Again, Father God in heaven, “Thank you for being such a loving and caring God. And thank you, Jesus. Because of your sacrifice on the cross my “sin” balance has been fully paid!”


(The tests came back good. I have a strong heart. The issue was caused by one of my medications, which the doctor changed.)

Copyright © 2026 Mark Brady. All rights reserved.

Why Are You So Busy?

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Keeping up with life is complicated. It seems as if the days go by so quickly. I have found it even more challenging as I have gotten older. And I know it’s not true, but the days go faster. I have noticed how I can do one chore, and after it is finished, I am ready for a nap!

There could be many reasons, like not sleeping well, sickness, and disease. If you have a condition, that can certainly make you tired after exerting a little effort.

But I think there is a more severe, more hideous force behind much of it. It’s evil, and it doesn’t care about you at all. It does have a name, and that name is “Satan.” He wants nothing more than to keep you and your life so stirred up that you don’t have time to think about God or even to consider him. And forget about thinking of asking God for help. It never crosses your mind. You are most likely fearful and scared about your finances, job, relationships, etc. Anything but God! Ironically, God is what you need and who you need.

30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and green and tomorrow is tossed into the furnace, will He not much more surely clothe you, O you of little faith?

31 Therefore do not worry and be anxious, saying, What are we going to have to eat? or, What are we going to have to drink? or, What are we going to have to wear?

32 For the Gentiles (heathen) wish for and crave and diligently seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows well that you need them all.

33 But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.

34 So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble. Mat. 6:30-34 (AMPC)

Surrendering your life to Christ, asking him to forgive you of your sins, and to come into your life is the place to start. If you have done that but still resist letting God guide you, then you need to get to know him so you can trust him. He loves you so much!

Even now, while I am writing this post, I got a phone call that has caused me to stop and pray. I am asking God what He would have us do concerning our rent house. Our current tenant just called me and said they could not pay June’s rent, so they are moving out. I need God to help me figure it all out. And how we are going to pay our bills now. See that is how practical God is and how much He cares about our daily grind. But because I have known God for a long time then I know I can count on him to provide for us. I trust him.

25-28 “Has anyone by fussing before the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? If fussing can’t even do that, why fuss at all? Walk into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They don’t fuss with their appearance—but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them. If God gives such attention to the wildflowers, most of them never even seen, don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?

29-32 “What I’m trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don’t be afraid of missing out.  Luke 12:25-31 (MSG)


Prayer: Father God, help us all slow down and consider you. Help us to talk to you and then trust you and help us believe that you know what we need. Help us to stop striving and let you be God.

Copyright © 2023 Mark Brady. All rights reserved.

The End, of the Christmas Story

red-cross“I’m so far in debt.  It’s so stressful.  I can’t wait for it all to be over!”

Jesus paid your debt, blood came out of his pores, and he said, “It is finished.”

The single mother unfortunately, was talking about Christmas.

Jesus’ actions, and what he said, was about dying, for the forgiveness of your sins.

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